Monday, December 20, 2010

Raw Truth

I apologize for not keeping up to date here. Between the holidays and some personal issues, the blog hasn’t been top priority. What I’m going to share today is something I wrote two years ago, originally posted on my Writing.com blog (which I no longer have). A chance for you to get some additional insight to my true self. It’s mostly still true.

 

In 24 hours you may or may not discover that I...

am incredibly shy.

have a very hard time asserting myself and dealing with people in a professional setting.

love to dance, sing, and play the piano, though not very good at any of them.

am a Sagittarius, particularly the traits of freedom-loving, good-humored, philosophical, careless, irresponsible, and tactless.

am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (aka Mormon).

don’t smoke, drink alcohol, or drink coffee.

can’t drive.

dislike abusive people.
don’t understand how people can be so selfish and cruel.

am a daughter, sister, niece, aunt, cousin, wife, mother, friend, student, singer, and writer.

met my husband online through datingfaces.com.

require positive physical touch and quality time to feel loved.

am bad with finances and determined to never own a credit card.

am either impulsive or indecisive.

am a loner, enjoy alone time, but fear being ultimately alone.
fear rejection, driving, and responsibility.

am scarred by multiple incidences of sexual abuse when I was a child.

spent a couple weeks in the hospital for depression, and lied about doing better to get out.

am haunted by my past and decisions that are too late to change.

worry about housework, my cooking, not being a good enough mom, and not being able to accomplish my goals.

am a child of the 80's.

enjoy sleeping naked, and have fond memories of talking on the phone with a guy in the middle of the night while in the buff (he being unaware of that fact).

have a difficult time expressing my feelings, especially those of hurt and anger.

come from a wonderful family of a loving mom and dad, three older brothers, an older sister, and four younger sisters.

have never broken a bone or pierced any part of my body.

have gained about five pounds in the last year, and am still underweight for my age/height/build.

once walked seven miles from a movie theatre to my parents house, after midnight, stopping once to nap on some grass next to a business sign.

dislike judgmental people and constant whiners.

battle anxiety and self-doubt on a daily basis.

am predictable as a six-sided dice.

express myself through poetry.

am writing a fantasy novel.

was born on Thanksgiving.

have a tendency to ramble.

have a quirky personality.

I am...

dandelion seeds floating in the breeze. a thorny rose. moonlight reflecting off water. simple elegance. dog and wolf. beauty and beast. dreamcatcher. creativity. memories. secrets. survivor. intimacy. harmony. chiaroscuro. cuddly teddy bear. scent of books. comfort. open arms. warm embrace. hot chocolate. Chi from Chobits. serenity. enchantress.

I am a Beautiful, Inspiring, Compassionate, Loving Woman.

I am a Daughter of my Heavenly Father, who loves me, and I love him.

I am a choice and special young woman, sent to this earth at this particular time for a purpose that only I can fulfill.

This blog, my writing, it’s all part of the journey to discover what that purpose is.

Raw truth, this is me.