Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Tuesday Tally and survival

Status of my novel

total words to date: 82,191

pages: 359

completed chapters: 17

Last week's goals:
  • write four scenes in WIP - short on this one...
  • make specific plans (time and place) for next WW mtg - everything is decided, location reserved, emails sent 
  • clean out main hotmail inbox - done. whew. four more to go 

Goals for this week:

  • finish chapter 18 
  • clean up email inbox of 2nd hotmail account

 

I am grateful for my husband. My day always gets better when he comes home from work. (Wishing he was home now...) I don't think I'd survive the week if he didn't get to work from home twice a week. I love my husband. He's sweet, shares common interests, will buy me flowers 'just because'. He's far from perfect, but who is? (Certainly not me...) He's much more patient than I am, a good dad and husband, and supportive of my writing. He already bought my birthday present, and has it wrapped and sitting where I will see it every time I open the closet. He does like to tease. I know he loves me very much. I'm sure looking forward to his hug today.

 

Less than two weeks to deadline... Fears have crept up, and interfeered with a lot of writing last week. It was easier to focus on timelines and calculating distance and travel than writing closer to "the end". The excitement of near-completion is getting smothered by the doubts and fears. I need to ignore all the emotion and simply write. Only ten scenes left to go. I can do this. Each scene is planned out, all I have to do is expand on that. Past the plotting and ideas stage. I already have the celebration party planned, so it would look bad if I didn't finish now. It's been so easy to find excuses not to write. Running out of time. Still very reasonable if I just do it. One scene a day gets me done a couple days early. I know it won't be a good ending. The rest of the book needs a lot of work, so I'll be doing lots of revisions anyway. I'm not sure exactly what it is I'm afraid of. That I can't meet my deadline? That it's all a waste of time and even after revisions won't be good enough? Am I so determined to fail? This will be my first completed novel. Maybe I'm afraid that I won't be able to do it again. But wouldn't that hinder starting a new project, not finishing this one? Enough with the anxiety. Just write. And write some more. One page at a time.

5 musings:

lizbit said...

argh! blogger has issues. I shall rewrite my comment. *ahem*

You aren't alone on the mixed-feelings front. (aka, now you know how I feel and we can commiserate together) Just remember that finishing a first draft is accomplishment enough for now. You can do it! *cheers*

Joey said...

*cheers*

Alice Anderson said...

Just dropping by to show some support. 500 words is better than nothing! And hey, that's my current tally as well. LOL Write, write, write!

Portia Da Costa said...

Yeah, you can do it! Go girl!

love

WendyPortia

Mary said...

Thank you to everyone who stopped by to show support and cheer me on. It was much needed. :-)