As I’ve been focusing on blogging and marketing, I haven’t felt like I have energy left for writing. The first month of a new book release is the most important in getting the word out. But I am not a publicist or a marketing guru. I am a writer. I found something I wrote years ago, back when I was struggling with finishing my first book. I found inspiration in a song. I’m hoping it will inspire me again, to not forget who I am.
Song lyrics in orange, interspersed with my own thoughts at the time:
Reach for the light
Deep in the night the winds blow cold,
And in a heartbeat, the fear takes hold.
The fear can freeze me—
fear of failure, rejection, even success.
Deep in the storm, there's a place that's soft and still,
Where the road waits to be taken, if you only will.
The potential is in me,
all I have to do is find the iron will within.
The voices inside you can lead you so astray,
Believe in what you dream,
don't turn away, don't you turn away.
I must overcome the doubts that haunt me;
I’ve wanted this my entire life, I won’t give it up.
Reach for the light,
you might touch the sky.
Stand on a mountain top, and see yourself flying.
Reach for the light,
To capture a star,
Come out of the darkness and find out who you are.
I know who I am—I am a writer.
So many dream but don’t follow through.
I can never be published if I don’t finish writing the book.
Somewhere in time the truth shines through,
And the spirit knows what it has to do.
This is my purpose in life; without it, I am not complete.
Time will show my dedication. Time will bring success.
Somewhere in you there's a power with no name,
It can rise to meet the moment and burn like a flame.
My muse will lead me if I give it the chance;
I simply need to set her free.
And you can be stronger than any fear you know,
Hold onto what you see don't let it go, don't you let it go.
I’ve made it this far. I have it in me.
Nothing will stop me.
There's no turning back.
Your destiny is calling.
Listen to the thunder roar,
And let your heart break free.
Whether I chose this path, or it chose me, it is the path I’m meant to be on.
The thunder of my accomplishments shall roar, and my heart shall break free from fear.
Oooh, Reach for the light!
Yeah! Yes reach for the light.
If I don’t reach for the light, for my dreams, then the light may as well go out.
I will finish my book. I will get published. I will reach for the light.
** Music: James Horner. Lyrics: Barry Mann & Cynthia Weil. Singer: Steve Winwood